This whole city makes me think of her. Going to the river, getting ice cream, going for a walk. She is written into these places in my memory, in my body. I wonder how long it will take till the memories of her and the memories of my heart ach for her are written over with others, new and different. How long till this city, my mind, my body feel like my own again and not residence to a house of ghosts.
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thanks y'all, I know it will get better, but it does genuinely help to have this affirmed through others lived experience.
making new memories in the same places, even when i didn't want to. it felt forced at first, then one day the location stopped belonging to the relationship.
after my breakup every street, coffee shop, and park felt haunted. years later those places are still mine, but the ache attached to them is gone
is there one place in the city that feels the hardest to visit right now, the place that brings her back the fastest
Gosh, I'm not sure. There are some river spots that would, probably the rose garden near her house, definitely the synagogue that her and our shared community go to.
I wish I could tell you a time frame but it just takes time. (which feels infuriatingly stupid, I know) sometimes change is good though. maybe try to do one thing new everyday. at some point, you’ll build new memories and it won’t feel as overwhelming anymore. I made myself a promise that if I don’t feel ‘better’ by December, that I’ll reevaluate my life and move if I have to. and sometimes that’s what is needed. I’m rooting for you. sending you positive energy ~