I was doing so well. then he broke no cibtact and (well same 7 ro 8 day cycle of him contacring). he showed a al7ver of a human being in there. but as always, snapped my neck immediately. still more lies about me having it all wrong that hes not with his ex and hes only working and remodeling his condo and not trying fo be in a relationship with her or anyone. so why is he on weekend trip with his family and she is there as well? the thing is he is free to d9 whatever he wants. he be9ke up with me. the thing that I dont foundememtally understand is why lie or even cobtact me? why not just let me be then? why is he doing that? I completely spiraled. screen shots sent to him, her and her family (i know. Who am I even right now? im not this crazy person that I have becime). I just want to understand why he does this. any insight. it drives me mad. I changed my number amd blocked him everywhere but I am strugling to not keep checking socials. like its a visceral need. for what? I already know. how much more pain do I need to feel? they don't post together but are both posting same spots. not looking is making me feel on fire. I was doing so well. I dont know what to do. I have zero will power and strength right now. anyone else in this phase? advice?
Last updated on:2026-06-22T11:31:11+05:30
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this part hit me hard: "not looking is making me feel on fire." i've been there. when you check his socials, do you ever actually feel better afterward, or does it just reset the pain all over again?
my ex would pop back in just when i started feeling stable, say something that made me think he cared, then disappear or contradict himself.
my ex keeps calling me and saying I got worried and I said don’t call unless you are willing to get back together and work on it. I think they just want control over us. I’m not picking up that phone anymore. no real conversation nothing just shifting the blame on me completely and projecting like I am the bad guy. anyways I think it’s just to see if we still care and control us. honestly that behavior is starting to make me think they don’t care.
sorry for typos. I couldn't type fast enough lol