All day I'm okay then at night i physically shake because that's when we used to talk a lot. It becomes so hard that i call him.I try to hang up he doesn't let me saying let me hold on to you just a little while. I always end the call saying i hope i don't call you again and beg him to never call me if he cares about me at all. He waits for my call. I was successful for 36 hrs that's my longest streak and that's it. Every fucking time we cry and tell each other how much we love each other and every time i have to cut the call.
Last updated on:2026-08-25T18:30:37+05:30
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i'd stop making the goal “never call again” and just focus on getting through tonight. i had to delete the number and give my phone to a friend during my worst hours because willpower alone wasn't enough for me.
god it's so hard when both of you are willing and craving to talk to each other. i hope you get through it❤️
when he says “let me hold on to you a little while,” what happens inside you that makes hanging up feel impossible?
His family liked me at first then they matched our birth charts . Their astrologer said that we if we get married it would be bad. Then they decided to not like me. His mom began telling me i should back off indirectly. When i told my dad about him and he called my boyfriend he spoke to him with so much respect.I realised that i never got that respect from his family. Their superstition was greater than their son's happiness. It was the most healthiest relationship i had ever been on . We love each other so much but i had to choose my self respect and leave him. It's complicated.
nights were the worst for me too because my whole body expected that call, and hearing my ex's voice would make me forget why i was trying to stay away in the first place.
I get it. When world felt heavy he was my comfort now he's not even mine.
Sounds complicated. Seems like you guys can't live without each other then why NC ?
It's so dumb.His family liked me but they matched our birth chart and shit. their astrologer said that if we got married it would end terribly and what not. then they sort of hated me. his mom began passive aggressive when my boyfriend wasn't in the room. I saw my future then and there and told him i wouldn't be happy if i married into your family.
why do you cut the call when you need him?
we would get back together if we kept talking.