I am no one’s favorite person anymore.
won’t drive all the way to me anymore.
won’t worry about me anymore.
won’t sleep next to me and immediately fall asleep.
I’m all alone.
I’m going through hell and I have no comfort and will never have peace and love again.
all those years meant nothing and I’m left all alone with all the memories and the promises.
in the end I wasn’t chosen.
and I still can’t sleep and think of anything else.
one day again on the no contact as I sent happy birthday.
I was always included in everything and now I have nothing.
I don’t know how to do this. it’s been a month and since yesterday everything is so much heavier and permanent and I can’t breathe.
Last updated on:2026-06-25T10:20:12+05:30
Comments (2)
did sending the happy birthday message give you any sense of relief at all, or did it make the loss feel even more permanent once the conversation was over?
you are someone's favourite person, someone will drive all the way to you, and someone will worry for you. but to find this new person, you must move on. but you don't need to move on straight away, it's not healthy to try to cold turkey it. you need to take your time, the best thing to do is to make new connections to replace old ones. like going out with Ur friends for food one a month instead of data night. or inviting friends over for a movie to get through the hard night, you still have people who care for you, maybe not in the same way they did, but they care for you. they want to help you and they know how strong you are. you can do this, just put one step Infront of eachother and just look forward, because the future will bring that love again, maybe not straight away, but it will come eventually