After almost 4 years of being back and forth between relationship, separations, talking and reconciliations came my final discard. I initiated it and went no contact. he followed by accepting that it is finally over. During those years everything happened like they describe the cycle… Perfect beginning with future projecting, intense love bombing to make me feel special and hook me fast and then the nightmare of silence treatments, triangulations, smear campaign and eventually I lost all my friends and he cheated with my best friend of 20 plus years. He never truly apologized unless it was conditional to get back together or beneficial to look good I. front of others. he never delivered any of his promised, always stonewalled me when I was sick, emotional, had financial needs or problems of any kids. ruined every special occasion including every single birthday. after this last discard I can’t get myself together. even though I studied patterns, listened and read articles and been to therapy sessions. But I am still in pieces and this is my last resort to get myself back together. life seems difficult right now.
Last updated on:2026-08-05T17:33:12+05:30
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i was grieving four years of hope, promises, and all the times i thought "maybe this time.😢
what has been the hardest part since going no contact, losing him, losing your best friend, or feeling like your whole life got pulled out from under you?
i went through years of the same push and pull, then one day they acted like it was all so easy to walk away. i knew every pattern by heart too, but knowing it didn't stop me from falling apart.
I have just ended a ten year relationship with all the same things you mentioned
sending you so much love I know how hard it is but keep going darling x
hi. I enpathize I am in the exact position as you long term relationship with what I had to admit was a narcissist. I don’t have good days just days I survive just fine. and then bad days. hope you keep no contact. I am finally on 20 days. I understand what you’re doing though. stay strong.