How do i forgive myself after crossing a boundary?

i kept replaying one mistake because i felt like i'd ruined years of trust in one moment. it took me a while to accept that guilt can teach you something without becoming your whole identity.

i wrote down exactly what i did, what boundary i crossed, and what i'd do differently next time. that helped me feel accountable without hating myself.

i feel like the 7 years of friendship probably make this hurt even more. do you miss her as a friend too, or is most of the guilt about what happened during those two months?

That's why you should never risk losing a genuine friendship over a relationship. Relationships are hard, friendships are mostly organic so you guys should've known what was at stake when you agreed to be in a relationship from a friendship. Deal with the consequences and move on.