I don't know why I feel so bad this is like the first time I'm experiencing a horrible breakup it's not exactly a breakup considering we never dated but it was like an unlabeled relationship and we both knew it we went from bestfriends to to people who knew everything abt eah other and fcked with each other in every way like we were practically the same personality in opposite genders and then we ended things but he never once reached out we both had an ego cause we were the same but he seems so careless like way more than me infact I think he might have found someone else he likes , he never reached out and I fac to see his face every day and whenever we are in the same room it feels like im the only one trying to catch glimpse of him and it's like I'm invisible for him h3 can walk straight past me without even looking at me Not even a millisecond and what hurts the most is the fact that he said I was his first love (like we both dated others but it was the first time we felt a love like this) and he was mine too and i know he wasnt lying before so how can he simply move on after a week while i havent moved on in 8 months and how can he look so happy and good looking even after the fact that and how is he living his life like I was never in it in the first place . it's like I was never there and like me and him were never a thing.
our friendship meant alot to me because we got eachother in every way we just clicked and we were each other bestfriends. and the worst part is im like the ugly one in the relationship like anyone can tell hes out of my league so he can get any girl if he wants and they are probably lining up for him but for me it's like its so hard for any guy to notice me . and after 8 months when I thought I finally moved on im back at square one after seeing him at a mutual friends birthday party he didnt even glance at me once while i was looking at him over and over again. it hurts so much to the point where I felt like I lost my other haf but at the same time I keep wondering why im taking it this hard when ive never loved someone like this before . im just tired of looking for answers and im numb I don't want him back anymore but I still keeping hoping he shows some regret maybe even a little maybe he misses me even a little . my brain has entered this kind of nihilistic state where nothing matters and I cant even do my work or live my life
Last updated on:2026-08-12T16:02:06+05:30
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losing a best friend you were that close to can hurt just as badly as losing a partner, and seeing them every day while they act like you're invisible is brutal
obsessing over whether my ex missed me because i needed proof that i hadn't meant nothing🥺
when you saw him at that birthday, did it bring back the feelings for him, or mostly the hurt of feeling like you meant nothing to him?
honestly it was a mix of both mostly the second one
I am so sorry you are going through this, when any relationship ends it can be so painful but having to see him all the time must be torture. Just know you have found a space where people will listen to you with no judgement here.
thank you so much ❤️ and it honestly feels really good to have let it out
you are deserving and worthy of so much better than how he treated you. you will feel this powerful love and connection to someone else who treats you well and wants to be with you. the first big love can feel like you’ll never feel it again, but you will. If you can try to think about those two things, as you grieve and heal, the tie you feel to him will start to fall away. and someday when you are with the right person, you’ll be so happy it didn’t work out with this person. right now maybe this doesn’t feel true. but time will pass and if you make a point to remind yourself of the kindness you deserve, you’ll see that being out of someone’s league isn’t a real thing, nor is it excuse to discard someone coldly. thats loser behavior. no guy or person is cute enough to excuse them of loser behavior. all relationships whether casual, undefined, serious, or exclusive, etc. are deserving of dignity, care, and respect. and this guy doesn’t seem to believe that. so leave him to keep doing that nonsense with other women…they aren’t winning either.
that lowkey made me feel so much better thanks alot <33 even though it hurts alot i think i can like muster up the courage and manage