Did he ever really like me?

What will make it easier for you to move on? That he didn't care about you or cared about you as much as he said he did but still chose to walk away? His actions and silence speak volumes. He has thrown away a good thing. But allow yourself to believe what will help you through this healing journey. Ultimately you don't know what he's thinking but there will come a time when you don't actually care anymore.

i used to think the person who leaves faster must have cared less, but that thought kept me stuck.

do you think he let go easily, or are you hurting because you needed him to fight for you?

my ex let go so calmly that i spent months wondering if i had imagined how much we meant to each other. that kind of silence after loving someone so hard hurts like hell.

I don't think you can tell whether he truly liked you just by how easily he let you go. My ex also seemed completely fine from the outside after we broke up, but I knew he loved me. I could even see it in his eyes. People just cope with heartbreak differently. I deal with my pain by crying and allowing myself to feel it, while he dealt with his by avoiding those feelings. That doesn't mean he wasn't hurt or that he didn't love me.
Sometimes people can love you and still choose themselves instead of putting effort into the relationship. It hurts, but it doesn't mean the love wasn't real. So don't question your worth or his feelings based on how easily he let you go.

me too 😔💔

I'm thinking about this too.. He chose himself, didn't want to talk, just said that something happened inside, that he realized that he didn't need me anymore. After 9 years.. as if letting me go would be the easiest thing he could do… I don’t know how to live by myself anymore. Somehow I need to rebuild my life step by step..

It's a good thing, he actually did you a favour. I know it hurts when you think about it right now but imagine spending the rest of your life with a man who doesn't love you let alone like you.