I am definitely not okay, my random dream of returning phone to the owner and the owner turned out to be my ex became true but in an indirect way. The class that we studying together, she left the class early, because she succeeded answer madam's question, the moment i was queuing i saw a phone on a table, which looked like being left out by someone, when i saw it, i hold it and looking for the owner and even ask every girl abt it, since it's at girls' place. My good friend tried to search for the owner by doing the phone-to-phone iphone feature which let you share contact, i do not recognize the pfp or the name, but in the amidst all of these, I felt smt familiar, the keychain, keychain position, phone size looks extremely familiar, next thing i know i randomly feel the emotional bond it felt like the phone is screaming to me. Then i gave up looking for the person, and i put it back to the original place, then she came by and was looking for her phone, when I'm chatting with my good friend and her company, she also nearby, but i guess since she's uncomfortable she says that she wants to left first, the trauma bond, heartache, stomach ache, heart pumps rushed through my physical body. Along the way to go eat, I texted her company to tell her to babywipe the phone because she need to know I held it, I say babywipe because last time she saw ppls that she hate holds her phone, she babywiped it. Then, her company agreed to my request. And when i'm still cooling down on a booth, she appeared behind me again, i feel the breeze, the presence and the grief all over again, and ofc it's hella awkward, and like usual I walked away, because I couldn't control the feeling to reconnect right there at the moment. If our story already ends, why she kept appearing in my life? Yes, she says no to me wanted to reconnecting but why all of these happening, as a bpd and overthinker self-diagnosed person, my mind hurts thinking all of these, and next thing I know I'd get infected with fever everytime i felt her presence. I miss her so much man.
Last updated on:2026-08-28T10:00:54+05:30
Comments (5)
damn, this sounds like it hit you ALL at once. when this happened to me, i had to stop treating every unexpected encounter as a sign, because i'd end up hurting myself with every possible meaning i could find.
feel this especially the part where you walked away because you knew you'd try to reconnect in that moment. do you think seeing her again is making you miss her, or making you miss the version of your life you had with her?
my ex used to show up in the most random places too, and every little coincidence felt like my brain was screaming that it meant something. i know how badly that ache can hit.
If you mind sharing, why are you not contact? I looked at your profile to see the full story but couldn't find it.
oh i kept forgetting, holup i think next post i'll tell you guys.