I went to work today and just did my job. My ex and I barely talked. Once, he found a piece of the gym equipment I needed. Later, when he was going on his break, he invited me to join him and offered to buy me a sandwich if I wanted one. We went on break together, but we didn’t talk at all.
I feel like he looked at me less than he used to today. We used to make eye contact several times, but today it happened only once. He was constantly reading something on his phone. I think it was probably study material, but I’m not sure. Since he kept looking at his phone, I caught myself watching him to see if he was messaging someone, but he wasn’t.
Yesterday, August 17, would have been our 2.5-year anniversary. I wonder if that’s why he was avoiding me today. Maybe he thought I might say something about it. I honestly don’t know.
But that wasn’t actually the main thing that happened today. The instructors at work still think we’re together. Since this is a voluntary position and it has been academically beneficial for both of us, we had decided not to let our relationship affect the workplace. We also thought it wouldn’t be a problem because we had remained friends.
Today, one of the instructors asked me how long we had been dating and whether we had met each other’s families. I gave vague answers and tried to brush it off. But answering those questions hurt me much more than I expected, because I’m still the one who wants things between us to work out.
Now, part of me keeps wondering why he didn’t look at me as much today. Does he really not love me anymore? I don’t know. But he’s still wearing the bracelet I bought him. And I don’t know what that means either.
Last updated on:2026-08-19T04:17:12+05:30
Comments (4)
i know how badly you want the bracelet, the sandwich, the little moments to mean something. i had to stop treating every tiny gesture as a message because it kept me stuck in hope every single day.
noticing every tiny change in my ex after we broke up, how long he looked at me, where his eyes went, what he did with his hands. i drove myself crazy trying to read feelings into all of it.
i feel like the anniversary probably made today hurt even more. do you think you're watching his eyes and bracelet so closely because you're looking for proof that he still wants this too?
I agree with what you said about the anniversary. But the reason I pay attention to other things is that I haven't seen him for days.