Yesterday I spent my day with my friend, that for the first time I brought her to my house, and reminded how I used to take him from the subway and go to my house. I miss the old him so much..I miss the memories, I miss how we used to love each other, I miss the feeling of loving him. I dont like the feeling of replacing him, or having fun without him, thats how I knew I always loved him.
I know I will miss these always, but Its okay, everything has an end.
the fact that he used to contact me everywhere when he wanted to reach out to me, and now he didnt even cares anymore, thats when I know he doesnt want to.
If he wanted, he would.
when he wanted, he did.
Last updated on:2026-08-20T20:26:12+05:30
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this hurt to read because you clearly still love him, but do you think part of what you're missing is him as he is now, or mostly the version of him and the relationship you had back then?
I completely relate to this. I don’t even know what hurts more, the fact that i’ll never see him again and feel his love or that someone else will hold him the way i used to.. That he will love someone the way he loved me. I look at places we used to go and be together and it hurts so much because i can feel the happiness all over again then it’s a huge slap in the face because now he is gone. I hope he also remembers how good we were and maybe it’ll be good enough for him to lower his ego and come back.
But i’m not going to be stuck in those memories. It’s okay to remember and grieve but make sure it’s not to the point where you get stuck in that memory. Or the past.
Its okay to miss them, but think of how you wouldnt ve to feel that way if he was with you right now. The memories wouldnt be sad, the places wouldnt be nostalgic. that feeling will eventually go away with time, we just need to be patient..🙏🏼
i've been here too, especially with that guilt around having fun without them.
doing normal things with friends and suddenly remembering how my ex used to be part of those exact moments, it made me miss the whole life we had, not just him.
I know the feeling. I have been visiting some places that bring back strong memories. While it makes me sad it also helps me heal - it shows me they are just places, and I shouldn’t let them hold power over me, I can feel sad and still make new memories. I’m a bit further along than you, keep going.
thank you💞