Why do i want to know about his life after the breakup?

today it’s day 21 of no contact with baby daddy but I felt the urge to know what’s happening, our daughter stays with his mother which makes it 10times harder for me to move on , yesterday I called her nanny and my daughter was sick and I told the nanny to bring her ive to the hospital where I work for treatment previously i would have looked for an opportunity to reach out to her father but am glad this time i dint i just got her treatment and I sent her back home … but I kept asking the nanny wether her father called and today I called his neighbor where we used to stay together as I always do to ask her if his girlfriend comes over and she told me yes today she saw her and my heart skipped , the anxiety kicked in and I wanted to call him, I dialed his number on my work phone and he picked up but am glad sense came back I immediately hang up and I prayed to God not to take me back to the begging and quarrels and constant anxiety I always get wenever I reach out to him I guess the feeling of loneliness is what is drawing me back to the old pattens I pray it passes

Last updated on:2026-08-24T10:18:12+05:30