we met on speak pal app ,at first he acted like a boring guy ,he was silent and didn't talk much . then he deleted his acc and opened new one with new nickname, I didn't cared much when he deleted his acc as I didn't take him as a friend back then but later somebody called dude called me I was late for a meeting but still found urge to take the call then it was him!! I was glad and he seemed completely different real himself.he was fun chill and then we talked lots of times changed social media, numbers , them he used to say let's stop talking for a while till my exam then we can talk but I was impatient and teted him after 2 days or3 . Cuz I had already fallen for him . he taught me lots of things ,reading namaz ,he was learning German and during the time we didnt talk for a month I learnt German to surprise him and he obviously was ,his reaction was priceless.. amd then my brother was against me talking to any boy but my mom knew about him thy he was different from other guys and our majors was the same medicine and I loved him . then looking at the past how many times he wanted to get over the friendship with me for a while just like I'm taking his time and my brothers influence I decided to end things myself that time . he was like -arent u gonna text after 2 days - duhhh no!... its been a month amd I keep checking on his posts and realized that he couldn't pass his exam . I thought like it was cuz of me and didn't find dare to text him ,felt scared that he was gonna blame me (idk). and I miss him ,even though it's less often than the early days we stopped talking ,I still miss the times he used to listen to me ,make me smile ,make jokes and wait for my reaction,it was cute and between the time I told him that I liked him 3 times amd he said it doesn't work out then I asked reason he blamed the distance then time like he said we can be in relationship after we have done university,job career and I said sure ,can we be together after all ,his answer was still nope . and I realized how dump I was to be that pathetic to be his but still I dont regret it . but I can't get over it too. and I want to text him after my exam to share my result cu we had deal thr I would share my result in October he said sure . and idk when I hi k about us getting to be friends again I feel scared that it's not gonna be as it used to be before .
Last updated on:2026-08-26T20:10:12+05:30
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i wish i’d been kinder to myself because caring deeply for someone doesn’t make you dumb. if you want to share your exam result because you both agreed you would, you can, but i’d try not to attach a whole future to how he responds.
i can feel how much you miss what you had, but do you think you’re more scared of losing him completely, or scared that even if you become friends again, you’ll still want something he’s already said he can’t give you?
getting attached to someone through all those tiny conversations and inside jokes, then suddenly having silence where they used to be. i used to reread old chats and wonder if i’d imagined how special it felt, even though i knew i hadn’t.
exactly ,I used to tell him I had the archive of our old chats before mutual friendship break up.he used to ask me to delete them for my own good and then u used to make me promise that I would delete it but one day I did promise but didn't delete then asked sry for that and he was mad for me lying to him . I still have them but it seems like , I won't stop think about him just after deleting the chat right ,I still have the memories 🙁
aha 📝 yeah u r right and I will , I for sure will text him . just when it's right timing . its like meeting your soulmate at the wrong timing and it sucks to know now that someone who already took part in ur life ,in your heart is not with u . tbh he is from another region and we were meant to meet trough social media
thank you for sharing. He sounds like a great friend and ofcourse message him when you feel like it's right. if you are trying to have no contact with him then it's best to wait until you're ready. I would suggest letting him know you're there for him and on his side and leave it at that until he's ready to reach out to you