i cried today when i was waiting for my bus. thinking of you while looking at your photos. well it was forbidden to look at it but oh my beautiful boy how couldnt i admire a piece of art. i miss our cinema dates
oh i cried yesterday too. when i imagine you with another girl being happy. far away from me... will she look at your eyes and admire them like i did? oh no please dont do it i love your eyes. your beautiful eyes. my whole world trapped in those eyes how can anyone admire them
i cried two days ago too. i found myself listening your favorite band. actually they are great. youve never showed me your spotify because it is special for you. but i bet your list was super cool
you know what i cried three days ago too when i pass by the streets we used to walk together. do you remember the time when we were at the bus station. after a home date... i was looking at your eyes and you were looking at mine with admiration. quietly. love was flowing from our eyes like rivers.
take a guess! do you think i cried four days ago? yeah i cried. i was doing the laundry and encounter with the shirt i wore for our last date. your scent was rubbed off on it. you know that i like your smell. you always smell good. my little baby. i sniffed the shirt and my eyes tear up immediately
well i cried five,six,seven,eight,nine,ten,eleven,twelve,thirteen days ago too (and right now as i writing these paragraphs)
but you hate when i cry i guess... you said it when we argue for the last time. you used it against me. but you were right i shouldnt have cried that much
yet i cant help it
i missed you so much my pretty boy i wish you can come back
Last updated on:2026-09-12T10:33:27+05:30
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i had to stop crying because my ex hated seeing me like that, but i eventually stopped being ashamed of every tear. you loved him deeply, of course the memories are still getting to you.
you shouldnt be ashamed of. crying is a very normal reaction. in my case my ex was talking about what bothers him or what makes him uncomfortable and i was starting to cry because i was feeling like shit for upsetting or making him mad. it was my defense system i wasnt doing it intentionally. but additionally i was saying "oh am i a bad gf? i am a bad gf. i am so sorry. etc. etc.". so this is why he hates when i cry
the way you remember his eyes, his smell, your cinema dates, even his favorite band… do you think you’re missing him as he is now, or the version of him and your relationship that you still carry in your heart?
we broke up ten days ago i dont think he changed that much but even if he changed i would still love him and miss him with my whole heart
i used to cry over the dumbest little things after my breakup, a song, a smell, a street we walked down, and suddenly i was right back there with him. those tiny reminders can hurt like hell.
i understand you, especially about playlist…so many bands i know just because of him. he literally create my music vibe
nooo his music taste didnt affect me that much since i just know some specific ones but i came across few songs he used to say he listen
I get you, i also just broke up a few weeks ago, and yet i cant seem to stop finding myself thinking about him, i try so hard to stop, to distract my mind, but i just cant, i never gave my hole heart to anyone, he was my first everything, how could i ever forget him, but he was really bad to me, he did awfull things to me, and I Will also never forgive him for that, no one ever treated me like he did, so i guess it needed to be the end, i just couldnt take it anymore, and you just need time, things Will eventually get better, at least that’s what i keep telling myself… and crying is normal, you need to let those fellings out, and i wish for the best for you, you deserve.
oh my god i cry for that too 😭😭😭
yeah he was my first everything too but he treat me like a princess i was just new for everything in the relationship. early months i acted so weird and did some mistakes i hurted him. i was changing and my aspect changed towards relationship for better. but the last argument he hurt me deeply. i feel like shit i was never enough for him
@CozySoul437 I understand, in my case in the start he treated me like a princess, until I was not the only one, he did a lot of bad things to me, and I tried to pull away but I just couldn’t, bcs I liked the feeling of being loved, at least that was what I was creating in my mind, cause I created a version of him that wasn’t real, so I ended up really hurt, and I also feel like I wasn’t enough, but I keep thinking things will get better, at least I hope
@Benedita22 Same. He treated me the way I didn't deserve and I will not forgive him for that. I was clinging for too long for the version of him that I created in my head... I don't think I was in love with who he really was, I was in love with my my own fantasies of him and with the future he promised. But real him would never be able to give me this. And even more to this... If I stayed with him... most likely I'd ended up in emotionally abusive relationships. The break up, hence painful, have saved me years.
@Elena exactly, I also feel like if I stayed with him longer it would’ve destroyed me, with him I was already sad, always worried about him and not in a healthy way so it was for the best, and I think I deserve better like not trying to be like that but I think it’s true, and you do too, so we need to move on i guess…