I haven't had contact with him for 2 weeks. I thought he had returned to France. Then, on the day an ambulance came for my father, he wrote to my sister asking if everything was okay with us, because he saw that an ambulance had come to us. And it was really good until that moment, because I only thought of him as existing in my head. And the fact that he wrote to my sister made me realize that he is here again, and it's killing me that he is 2 minutes away from me and... Uh, I can't do anything about it. At the same time, I know that he hasn't changed and hasn't learned any lessons from all of this. But at the same time, I miss him. And the fact that he is nearby and I could meet him literally by going for a walk has made me stop wanting to leave the house at all, and at night my thoughts are still filled with him.
I also don't understand why he contacted my sister very late in the evening, when the ambulance arrived in the afternoon
Last updated on:2026-10-05T17:41:11+05:30
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i felt this so hard when i found out my ex was living close by again. suddenly every street felt like a place i could run into him, and my brain went right back to him being REAL instead of just a memory.
i’ve had to remind myself that missing someone doesn’t erase what i learned about them. when i got stuck wondering why my ex reached out at certain times or through certain people, i kept making stories that hurt me more than the silence did.
i’m wondering about that moment when you realized he was only two minutes away. did the fear of running into him hit harder than the actual urge to see him?