I just keep questioning if I did right or wrong by leaving him when I had the option to go back, and be stuck in the same loop, he begged me stay but I left now I mourn him every single day. I loved him like my family but had enough of disrespect and abandonment at this point as its already 1.5 year since the breakup I feel ill never move on. And ill remain sad.
Last updated on:2026-10-07T17:30:12+05:30
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i left my ex after two years of constant disrespect, and for months after, I kept beating myself up for not going back when he begged, even though i knew deep down he was just going to abandon me again.
what finally helped me stop looping on the 1.5 year mark was writing down every single time he abandoned me or disrespected me, and re-reading that list every time i caught myself missing him. it reminds your brain why you walked away in the first place when your nostalgia tries to rewrite history.
do you have any moments now where you catch a quick glimpse of peace, or does it still feel like day one all the time
I don't know your circumstances but here is what I can suggest as per my personal experience. you are not leaving him but you are choosing yourself, because you deserve the love and care you give to others...right?
so you can love someone deeply yet not choose them, and choose yourself.
moving in doesn't mean just escaping those feelings but explaining yourself that this is life and it happens. there will pe people who genuinely will love you, treat you better.
just give yourself the love you were giving to him. understand this you can't earn love through more efforts.
Don't look for the love, just give yourself love that you were giving to him and just wait, keep yourself busy, change the place or change the job, meet new people (but don't find escape in them) enjoy your day.
most importantly don't try to escape pain, it's okay to feel said, cry...but for sometimes then just love yourself