Part of me just feels awful all the time. Letting go of someone you cared so deeply for seven years is unimaginably painful. But if I truely love myself I need to let him go. He got everything out of me he possibly could and in the second I told him I wasn’t doing well mentally he disappeard. I was no longer useful to him - not as a friend, not as a potential hookup, not as his “therapist”. I needed my strenght for myself and he was mad at me for it. He ghosted me first, so I stopped texting too. Today, I finally found the strenght to block his phone number. I do not want to live with the fear of him reaching out to me all of a sudden. Even if I misinterpret his absence I cannot deal with his problems anymore anyway. I want to be happy again and I can only find it by letting him go.
Last updated on:2026-10-09T01:45:21+05:30
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he fumbled the best thing to ever happen to him and I’m so proud of you for loving yourself enough to begin moving on
seven years is a HUGE piece of your life, and realizing someone only wanted you when you could give them something is such a brutal kind of grief. blocking that number took strength.
this hurt to read, especially the part about needing your strength for yourself and him being mad about it. when i finally stopped being my ex’s therapist, i felt guilty for weeks, but protecting what little i had left was the first thing i did for ME.
i really feel the fear behind blocking him. i had that same dread of my ex suddenly reaching out and throwing me back into the whole cycle. does some part of you still hope he reaches out, even though you know you don't want to deal with his problems anymore?
I think the part of me that does hope he reaches out is the part that still wants him to be a decent, good-hearted human being. It is less about him caring about me but me knowing that all the good I have invested into him was not for nothing. Does that make sense?😅
I'm glad you choosing yourself......you shouldn't feel guilty or awful for choosing yourself....the pain will fade with time just tine if you let it