ive stopped contact w him except i wished him for his bday last month.. anyways its been 8 months since he left me and im not able to move on and depressed.. ive taken therapy and meds but no change.. its affecting my career and attendance too.. idk what to do.. sometimes i think of ending it all to stop the pain cus its too painful and i cant sleep. but then i dont want to be selfish and inflict pain on my family.. im not interested in seeing anyone else either.. idk what to do. i tried everything but hes an avoidant and nothing worked.. once he started feeling something deeper for me he left out of fear..
Last updated on:2026-10-15T09:30:57+05:30
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8 months of hurting like this sounds exhausting, especially when you're trying so hard to get through each day. i've been in that place where my ex leaving messed with my sleep, my work, EVERYTHING, and i felt so ashamed that i still wasn't okay. i'm really glad you're still here.
how did you move on?
i know you said you've tried therapy and meds and nothing seems to be changing, and that must feel so defeating. when i got that low after my breakup, i finally told someone close to me just how bad my thoughts had gotten, and i stopped carrying the darkest parts alone.
ive already spoken about it to my close friends..even that hasnt helped
Greif is not leiner...so there will days your ok...then one random day you won't....then moths of good days happen then it pops up again...give yourself grace.... don't hid from the pain.. go through it...and you'll eventually end up on the other side
but how long?
when the pain gets unbearable at night, are you usually alone with your thoughts, or is there someone in your family who knows how bad things have become?
i mean are you a bot?