Been abused and assaulted by a guy friend recently and although the matter was settled I'd still have dream about him on top of me choking me and they'd feel so real that I'd get up coughing or feel his weight on me

i get the therapy won’t help feeling. i swore it off after a bad first try. but later… i found someone who got it. and it didn’t fix everything but it helped me feel a little less haunted. please don’t give up yet. not on you.

i had dreams like that for months after. it messed with my sleep and my sanity. you’re not crazy. this is trauma.

i’m so sorry. this hurt to read. you didn’t deserve any of what happened to you. the body remembers even when you try to move on. i’ve woken up gasping too. it’s terrifying. you’re not alone.

You are fucking strong to share this with us and talk about that. That is the first step to heal and you did it. So proud of you

i am sorry to hear that,
try therapy it can really help

I’m so sorry to read what you have been through. you have found the strength already to share your experience and although you don’t perceive therapy will be helpful, I promise you that the first step talking about what has happened to you has already been done.
CBT therapy or EMDR may be better rather than seeing a basic counsellor. New Pathways are an amazing service who will fully understand what you are going through. Please hold on and reach out to those around you. you are stronger than you realise x