After sending him a long goodbye text because I wasn't getting anything from him and probably won't for a really long time or at all even as much as I hate to admit it to myself. I went to his house and dropped off his belongings, I ruined some of them with makeup and sharpie but not to make him angry but to help myself. It was so difficult and upset me a lot, though. I then walked through a field which was one of the places I first spent time with him properly. it really hurt having to say goodbye when i got to the place we sat at but i'm glad I did it and i'll probably be visiting some other places i went to with him in the next few days.
Last updated on:2026-04-09T14:18:41+05:30
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when you were there, did it feel like closure for you or did it just make you miss him more?
a bit of both really but i felt glad I did it afterwards
sometimes you need a physical goodbye to make it real.
ohh i did something similar, left things at his place and walked past all our spots just to feel it one last time. it felt like ripping the memory out of my body but also kinda freeing in a weird way
he's the first person I ever truly loved and the first person who showed me true love so this is one of the worst losses i've had to deal with💔💔