had an old friend message me last night who didn’t know anything about the break up. ended up explaining the whole thing from start to finish to them. doing this brought up emotions i don’t want to feel and thought i already worked through. i then went to bed and had my first dream about him since weve broken up. i woke up sick to my stomach, it was an awful dream. he was very mean to me in the dream and said i things i wasn’t mentally ready to hear, dream or not. i have plans today that i have been excited for but i just feel sick and terrible this morning. hoping i’ll feel better later.
Last updated on:2026-04-27T05:32:03+05:30
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you feel like talking about it last night helped at all, or did it just reopen everything for you
honestly on days like this i just let myself feel off and don’t force being okay. i’d still go to your plans but keep it low pressure, even showing up at 50% is enough
i remember thinking i was okay until i had to retell everything and it all came rushing back like it just happened. and the dreams? those messed me up more than the actual days sometimes 💔
I'm sorry lovely, you're doing your best.
Make sure you stick to your plans, it's too easy to drop everything and get stuck ruminating.
You'll feel much better if you have a distraction.
Well done for talking about the situation with friends, it's a really good way to access thoughts and feelings you might not have fully processed. Do you have other people to talk to? Every different friend I've spoken with has helped me in a different way, be it offering advice, new perspectives, or just spending time together.
Remember, the dream wasn't real, it's a way to process your anxieties, questions, fears etc. Don't run from those feelings. When you have space, sit with them for a little while. I like to write mine down to kinda get them out of my head, and it helps me to slow down when I'm trying to put them into words.
It's going to keep hurting (in different ways, reasons/triggers you wouldn't expect - I can't look at the foods he likes without my heart aching lol), but it gets easier. Don't forget that.
I hope you have a good day. Take it slow, get yourself some treats if you can. x
keep your head up, keep moving forward, and know youre not alone friend ❤️