How to move on from a fleeting but deep connection

i don’t get how something so short can leave this kind of mark.
i met him on my 26th birthday.
three days that’s all we had.
but it shifted something in me that never went back.
it felt like love at first sight like something already written before we even spoke.
his name is liam.
we met at a bar that night and there was this instant pull like i was meant to find him in that room.
he told me in french he was kind of struck when he saw me.
those few days felt outside of time.
and then it just… ended.
no real beginning no real ending just gone.
it’s been over a year and he’s still on my mind every single day.
i’m still in love with him even though it doesn’t make sense.
that’s what hurts the most i don’t even really know him. i don’t know the small things about him the details that usually come with love. there’s so much i wish i could say but i know it would sound crazy after only three days… and i don’t even know if he felt it the way i did.
i still see his face in my head. blue eyes brown hair tall that soft kind of smile. i remember thinking he was beautiful the second i saw him and when he looked at me the same way it felt unreal.
for a moment i felt chosen.
and then it disappeared.
it feels ridiculous to say because it wasn’t even a relationship but to me it meant everything.
he’s still there in my thoughts like something that never fully left.
he once said he’d never forget that night and somehow that makes it harder.
the last time i texted him he told me he met someone else. he lives in another country now.
i want to reach out so badly just to know how he is if he ever thinks of me… but i’m scared because i already know i won’t get what i’m hoping for.
part of me still believes it meant something to him too.
another part knows i might just be holding onto something he’s already let go of.
maybe he was never mine to begin with.
i just don’t understand why something that felt so beautiful had to hurt like this.
now i carry it with me and i don’t know where to put it.
i don’t know how to let go of something that felt so real in every part of me… when for him it might have just been a moment.
i love you liam.
and it scares me how much of me still feels tied to you.
like some part of me is still waiting even now.
there’s this ache in my chest that won’t go away.
like i lost something that really mattered.
something that somehow felt even stronger than my first love.
if anyone has felt this… how do you move on from something that barely existed?
because i don’t know how.

Last updated on:2026-04-29T16:54:02+05:30