Today I woke up with the realization that our story was truly over, and it filled me with a deep sense of anxiety. I know people change, that sometimes feelings fade, and I also know that being someone who procrastinates, it just wasn't compatible with him anymore. But still, after five years together, we deserved to try and find each other again... Today, all I'm left with is a feeling of incompleteness, injustice, and guilt. Since he left, I feel like that strange, interesting girl everyone made fun of again. His love protected me from that, and I'm afraid that he and everyone else will realize how worthless I am.
Last updated on:2026-04-30T18:01:03+05:30
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do you actually believe you’re “worthless” right now, or is it more like his absence made that old fear louder again?
that guilt will try to eat you alive, i had it bad too
when my ex left after years, it was like i lost the version of me that felt safe and loved too. i went right back to feeling like that “weird girl” i thought i had outgrown
Not the BEST, best boyfriend won’t leave you, won’t make you feel guilt. The BEST would still be with you. You just haven’t found your one yet. Your person is out there! just have to wait and see. Time will only tell. Which sucks but it is possible.
If I had understood this difference, I would have tried to improve myself because he was a good boyfriend, probably the best I will ever meet.