Hey all.
So, I broke up with my ex (2 years) on Wednesday, and today is Friday. I've gone through a really fuckin weird emotional process. At first, it felt like my chest was torn open and the whole void was pouring in, but now... I feel strangely okay. I put all the stuff she gave me into a garbage bag to make the decision to throw away later, and now I'm kind of just walking around strangely euphoric. We had a long distance relationship and my love language is physical touch then quality time, so maybe that would be why I'm feeling so unburdened. On one hand, it's so hard to not have a special someone I can share my life with, but on the other... The way she broke up with me said a lot about what the relationship might have been to her anyways. At the end of the day, I've already reached the point where I've decided that if she does reach out (...I doubt it) I probably wouldn't take her back.
...On an unrelated note, I usually don't see a reason to stop being friends with exes from my past (with the exception of one that chased me around a table with an axe... Yeah, she wasn't my friend after that lmfao). However, the way in which my most recent ex broke up with me told me, in no uncertain terms, that the open communication and trust I thought we had wasn't real. I was committing to a relationship that, now that I can see her without bias, she didn't really... commit to.
But anyways, still definitely some cognitive dissonance going on in my head right now, lmao. But, I'm doing alright. I'm an old pro at dealing with hard situations so maybe that explains my inexplicable "okayness"? Who knows. I'll take what I can get!
Last updated on:2026-05-30T17:24:11+05:30
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when you look back now, do you think you've been grieving the relationship for a while already without realizing it?