Hey.
So, in a brief moment of weakness today, I went ahead and checked out my ex's discord profile. I was just looking for some sign -- any sign -- that she felt at least a little pain from our breakup. Yesterday I was doing great, but today the uneasiness has set back in. Ugh.
Anyways, so I look at the profile, right, and what do I see, except: "Despite everything, it's still you."
Yeeeep. That did it. I felt a lead weight sink in my heart at that one. It's really really funny, cause in my journal entry for yesterday, I wrote that exact same Undertale quote! And to see her use it as well, especially since one of the reasons she cited for the breakup we had was lack of mutual interest...
Guh, it's got me questioning all over again. We were together for two years and I put everything I had into that relationship -- but was I just a rebound guy for her? We ended up getting together shortly after she broke up with a different guy. Maybe the whole thing was just puppy love for her? I know for sure she didn't commit as much to making a plan to close our distance (we were long distance) as I did, and she didn't even really commit to the relationship in the same serious way. It kind of feels like while I was building a future, she was telling me how perfect I was for her and also building a giant exit door at the same time.
It kind of makes me feel used, and gross. It makes my brain ask that uncomfortable question of if I can really be loved at all. Am I truly loveable? Or am I the perfect rebound?
...Logically, I know I am, but sometimes, yk... It's emotionally hard to reconcile that with this and past breakups.
Last updated on:2026-06-01T22:25:12+05:30
Comments (5)
that quote would have knocked the wind out of me too. i remember finding a tiny thing on my ex's profile that seemed to line up perfectly with something i'd written, and my brain spent DAYS trying to turn it into an answer. all it really gave me was more questions
someone can care about me and still not choose the future i was building toward, and those two things can exist at the same time. i used to call myself the "rebound guy" too, but i was carrying all the responsibility for explaining someone else's choices.
the part that sticks out to me is that she told you how perfect you were for her while not really committing to closing the distance. looking back, do you think there were moments during the relationship where you felt that mismatch too, but pushed past it because you loved her?
i feel for you man. feeling gross is totally normal...it really took me about a week or two to stop feeling so disgusting and used. you are lovable and i firmly believe there is always love after love. stay strong.
Thanks... I really appreciate it. Just gotta keep on keeping on, I guess! lmao.