Past few days , been feeling really anxious, not gonna lie. My mind has been constantly thinking of her texting me and us talking again , and getting back together, or me texting her something and the same results.
But I came to realize that , it's just my anxiety ,and me wanting to calm it.
Or my ego needing the safety that I thought we had ,but in reality, I was just exhausting her.
She broke up with me , so me texting her is just me thinking about myself.
I realized that , I truly miss her , and this silence and distance between us really hurts ,but me knowing that she has peace and quiet right now, makes me happy. I don't want to disturb her peace. I'm actually happy that she can enjoy her time without me making it worse like I did before. I'd lie to myself if I didn't want to spend the summer together, her presence really meant a lot to me ,and the little things she did, they meant a lot to me. After all , she showed me what true love really means , even tho I ruined it. I wish this didn't remain a lesson tho , but , this lesson is making me a better version of myself , and I'm grateful for that.
I've been thinking about her a lot lately , I mean, everywhere I go , I just see us together:)
God put her in my life to show me what true love is, when I was about to give up on that.
It exists, it just wasn't the right person all these times, and it was my fault as well.
Don't let anxiety and overthink ruin what you have, guys , I'll say it a million times.
Don't let your emotions control you.
I miss her a lot.. but I truly love her, and I hope that whatever or whoever comes her way will make her happy, and I wish her all the best.
Last updated on:2026-06-01T21:09:47+05:30
Comments (10)
when you say you "ruined it," do you genuinely believe the whole breakup was on you, or is that the story your guilt is telling you right now?
yeah it was on me , I ruined trust and that's the most important thing in a relationship, besides that , she did forgive me and give me reassurance but I still exhausted her. So yeah
learning that missing someone and needing to contact them aren't the same thing. i could love them, miss them every day, and still choose not to interrupt the path they picked for themselves
getting to that point where i missed her like crazy but also knew reaching out would mostly be about easing my own anxiety. that's a brutal kind of love, when you care enough to leave someone in the peace they asked for.
When you love someone... you don't let them go. You may say she seems happier, but she misses you too. Maybe there needs to be more boundaries and emotional work to be done, but you guys could work through it
I get your point , but that's thinking about your needs , if your partner is so burned out , and that's their decision, I can only respect it , I do love her a lot, but me reaching out again will only be a thing for me to calm myself , maybe she does miss me , and I have been wanting to reach out a lot but I figured out thats just me needing to calm my anxiety, to have the same safety I've been needing when I was burning her out.
you weren't the problem your looking at this like you were a bother to her and bugged ip her time. if someone was really in love with you they wouldn't care if you spent every waking moment together honestly... But yea space is good for everyone to clear heads and think. it does look like your farther along then I am on my journey as I cant even let go..
Love must be earned, not begged for, that's what I did, no matter how much you love someone , people have their own limits, and I respect hers , and keep your head up, it will be okay
@subdual thank you and hopefully you are doing alright too.
congratulations