Does my ex-situationship regret leaving me after i fell apart?

Do you think an ex-situationship ever regrets walking away when you completely fell apart after the ending?
I’m honestly struggling with a lot of shame. When things ended I didn't handle it well at all. I was devastated panicking and said things to her that were cruel and not truly how I felt. I also kept reaching out after she asked me to stop because I was terrified of losing her and couldn't accept what was happening.
things felt good during the first year even though she was dating someone else. But over time watching her stay with her boyfriend while hoping things would eventually work out between us took a huge emotional toll on me. She often told me there were issues in their relationship and that she didn't see it lasting long-term which only made me believe there was still a future for us.
Eventually she blocked me everywhere. There were still a few ways I could contact her like email and I continued reaching out more than I should have. Looking back I understand why she needed that boundary but I also can't deny how abandoned and heartbroken I felt.
She told me she would never want to be with me even if I changed and became a better partner. That still hurts to think about.
I guess what I'm wondering is whether someone ever looks back and regrets cutting someone off completely or if once things reach that point they're usually gone for good. Part of me feels ashamed of how I reacted and another part of me still feels deeply hurt by how everything ended.

Last updated on:2026-06-15T20:33:12+05:30