Why is every day getting worse after the breakup?

when my ex disappeared after our breakup, i convinced myself he needed me because i knew how bad his depression could get. carrying that worry every day exhausted me, and i was hurting while trying to save someone who wasn't mine to save anymore.

has he actually told you he's struggling right now, or is your heart filling in the blanks because you know what he's been through before?

You can't save him. You are not the fixer or the stabilizer. The effort you're putting in to figuring him out is the effort you deserve towards repair as well. Focus on healing, feel the void of him being gone for as long as you feel it. Accept that. Repair is not the problem, wanting to fix things is not the problem. Living in that uncertainty is the problem and it will destroy you.

He doesn't. I have depression too, and I still miss my ex, but I asked for help and managed my situation. What he really needs is therapy and medication. Focus on what you need to move forward