so my long term boyfriend broke up with me 4 weeks ago - out of nowhere. He was planning the exit 4 weeks ahead. He told me that he wanted to focus on himself now and on his career. We saw each other afterwards two times because he had to move his stuff out of our apartment. We even slept together a couple of times after the breakup. I know that he went on a surfing trip with a friend. I sadly have still access to his Google account and today I looked into it and found out that he was asking AI for the meaning of plantonic. I looked further into it and saw that he wants to ask someone, who recently broke up with her partner and who he met on the trip to behave like a couple for one night. my heart hurts so much right now. I know that it's my own fault because I looked into his account but now I can barely breathe and I feel so disgusted of myself because I still love and miss him and thought that he would at least wait a couple more weeks before doing something like that or that he would even change his mind and come back to me. And now I don't know how to cope.
Last updated on:2026-07-25T13:23:58+05:30
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i had to stop giving myself new ways to get hurt, even when i still had access to their accounts. i know it's easier said than done, but cutting off those windows into their life was the first thing that gave my heart a little peace.
I’m so sorry. I know how badly it hurts. I promise that it’s better not to know or see what they are doing.
it's hampering you. emotionally and mentally. please do not sleep with him anymore. and kindly remove his account from your phone as it will effect you the more .. the more you see. He is clearly not looking for any kind of relationship with you that's why he used an excuse.
affect not effect*
i found things i wish i never looked for after my breakup too, and those few minutes changed how i slept for weeks. i know that sick feeling when hope disappears all at once.
did he ever give you any reason to believe he wanted to get back together after you slept together, or were you holding onto hope because it still felt like you were together?
I was holding onto hope because I still can't imagine my life without him. but he clearly can and that hurts so much
i dont know how to help
but today is the day one for me
i cant bear the panic attacks
I can understand you dear
same
@HappyJourney440 I hope we can heal
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