I had gone 27days without contacting him but sometimes being with our daughter is a trigger so yesterday I wa with my daughter and he had tried calling me but I had black listed him so yesterday I ended up calling and he was telling me why I dint give him a birthday gift his birthday was on 25th august i told him thats no longer my responsibility and he was telling me to find our daughter’s birthday which is on Tuesday i told him I don’t have money either … and I ended up calling him back in the night and telling him our daughters clothes don’t fit her anymore but the actual reason I called it’s because I wanted to feel that sense of belonging I always desire to get from him but right now I feel guilty and weak because it’s like I took myself back to that place of him having power over me … ive decided to set my no contact date and try again 🥹
Last updated on:2026-08-31T19:15:16+05:30
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i know how badly that sense of belonging can pull you back. when you called him last night, did hearing his voice actually give you what you were hoping to feel, even for a little while?
yeah it did but then it’s not what I want for the rest of my life I want to feel whole again .. I want to feel loved not having to beg for it
i’d go weeks without reaching out, then one tiny trigger would have me calling because i missed that feeling of belonging. the guilt after was brutal, like i’d erased all my progress.
i understand …going through the same right now but am not giving up ive restarted my count and yeah am choosing healing
its hard to maintain no contact when there are children involved. Be kind and gentle with yourself. Its normal to want that familiar feeling back. You are anything but weak. You are so strong
thanks dear .. it’s literally very hard but I gues I learn every time I fall ..🙏 am choosing to restart and be kind to myself probably I will learn how to only make the conversation be about our daughter with time am proud of myself that I dint act on my emotions to overly text him