I recently was on instagram just scrolling and one of our mutual friends had posted something with him in it (it was just a throwback of him opening Pokémon cards) and I don’t know what about that video that made me spiral. it wasn’t recent because he isn’t in this state anymore but maybe just seeing him from before? I don’t know but i watched the video so many times and I know I shouldn’t have but I muted our mutual friend just in case it happened again.
Last updated on:2026-10-14T20:40:11+05:30
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you feel like seeing him brought back a specific memory, or was it just the shock of seeing his face when you weren't prepared for it
hmm muting that friend was actually such a smart, protective move for yourself.
muting three of my best friends for months because seeing his face pop up in a stupid weekend story made my stomach drop into my shoes. it's so normal to spiral over a harmless old video, especially when you weren't expecting to see him at all.
you don't have to delete him and pretend like your life with him never happened. when you're ready, upload them to a flash drive and save them somewhere. but wait till you're ready. only you know when you're ready. be patient with yourself. it takes time. we don't heal in one day. there is no specific timeline for healing a broken heart. you are doing a great job. I'm proud of you. spiraling today means that you have a heart and that you care about people. that is a beautiful thing.
my heart goes out to you. how did you feel when you saw that? do you still have pictures of them or messages from them on your phone? I moved all my messages and photos to a flash drive. It is normal to have feelings for him when you see a old photo of him. be kind to yourself.
I have all the photos and videos of us in a hidden folder in my camera roll, I don’t look at it but I can’t bring myself to delete them. Just seeing that just made me spiral and It makes me feel like I don’t know him and I do