After achieving 10 days of no contact with my ex, I relapsed on Saturday. Drunk and vulnerable I reached out hoping he'd changed only to find out that the disrespect towards me was worse.This is the same man who treated me like a second option was consistently disrespectful and physically and emotionally abused me. He'd get angry at me without reason and when I tried to communicate about our problems he'd gaslight me by saying I was crazy.He'd also make excuses to avoid spending time with me always claiming to be busy when I suggested visiting him at his place, and only wanting to meet at his parents' house.I'm tired of promising myself that I'll choose self-love and prioritize my own well-being, only to end up going back to him.I'm exhausted from the cycle.When I try to leave his friends and family tell me to be patient but until when?
Last updated on:2025-09-06T02:07:28+05:30
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every time you try to walk his people keep pulling you back in. i had that too, where even his family made me feel like leaving was wrong. it kept me circling longer than i wanted.
they make you feel like you are wrong for choosing yourself you end up feel like you are selfish
i slipped so many times too. i told myself i was strong then one weak night i’d call and regret it the next morning. it doesn’t erase the 10 days though you still did that once.
I'm so disappointed in myself
i remember breaking no contact drunk texting begging for scraps only to get spit on again. i hated myself after. it felt like he could treat me like trash and i’d still crawl back.
that's how I feel right now 💔
I was emotionally abused as well and I still reach out to him because at the end of the day even though he hurt me, I loved him. The sad thing about me is he is a year younger then me and I just graduated high school in June and he is in his senior year, so I was being emotionally abused by a high schooler who doesn't have his crap together. It's really hard and I agree, I just want him I don't want to chose myself. I am so sorry you are in this situation. Hang in there, we will get through this.
don't worry you will be fine choose yourself
things will be fine just I don't I don't know how I feel I'm not sad or happy
How long have you guys been together ?
4 years
I'm sorry you're going through this