if you look back at my other posts, I mentioned how he had a lot of 'girl' friends and along with multiple crushes he's had on those same girls and others too. So one of them, he liked in 8th grade( were seniors now) and he had asked her to a dance that the school had and she had turned him down quite brutally honestly and he was depressed the rest of the night. I was one of the few people who say and comforted him because that was the year I had begun becoming friends with him. But like the thing about him is that, he often gets really upset at certain things and when that would happen he would just kind of shut offband push everyone away who tried to help, if that makes any sense. it may sound like a normal thing to some, but with him it was just really extreme. I experienced it a lot when we were dating because he would even shut me out every single time. but anyways, this gurl he liked since 8th, he never stopped being friends with her(or any of the girls he's had crushes on). and honestly like a month before our breakup, I was realizing all of this and how he still seemingly likes her and probably all of them still. I remember this one class the week before he broke up with me. I, him, this girl and one other girl were sitting together and we had a free period because it was the end of the year. I had got up and grabbed a pack of giant uni cards because I had and still have a tiny obsession with making card towers. and I asked him if he wanted to do it with me, but he said no because he had this presentation thing to do that was due his last period. and I wasn't hurt by it because I had known that he's been working on it. so I turn to the girl and ask her if she wants to or just to do a game of uno, and she says no thank you, I don't really like board games. I was confused and just said okay awkwardly and began doing it by myself the entire class. allt be while watching, because literally every single 3 seconds he would turn to her and dive into a conversation, like full on head in hand with elbow on the desk conversation, turning himself away from me and more towards her even. He had refused to do something with me because he said he had work yet he was stopping and not even doing the said work so that he could talk to her instead right in front of me. I had called him out for it at some point and said you're not even doing your work and he said yeah I am to which I said no you're not you're turning and talking to her every 3 seconds. and he didn't say anything after that. looking back, I really really wish I had broken up with him myself, I feel so stupid. but anyways, I found out yesterday that he and that girl are dating now. And it honestly made my so incredibly angry when I first heard. After a bit, I cooled down but it just made me mad. but also it confused me, because w couple weeks ago I posted something saying that he broke the no contact after school and asked me if I wanted to talk to which I said not really and walked away. he hasn't approached me since. but it just got me thinking, if he had wanted to be with her this whole time, why did he care about talking with me? I recently came up with the conclusion that he just so badly wanted a relationship since I've known him, and I think the approaching me was like he wanted to make sure things were really over between us and when it was confirmed he said okay into this girl then. this all just makes me so angry. And I know people are going to say that like I just need time because clearly if I'm still caring so much about things like this I'm not over it yet. I know, I know I still need time, but I honestly just don't think that'll happen until I graduate and never have to see his face again. its not because I miss him, it's just he did so many things to me and hurt me so much and I just hate him completely now and I don't think that'll ever pass.