I think I miss him the most at night. When everything around me is still and quiet I remember him. I’m laying in bed with this ínstense feeling of dread and sadness. I keep trying to tell myself “be patient, if it’s meant to be it will work out regardless of circumstances” but I catch myself crying. All day I try to avoid thinking about him and talking about him. My mom said to me once “you’re getting better at forgetting him” but reality is that I’m not. I miss him all the time actually. I miss him during the day and I night. I miss him a little bit sometimes but other times I feel like I’m suffocating when I think of him. Despite it all I always miss him in a way I can’t even begin to explain. It’s an isolating dull pain that never really goes away. This time, like every other time things went south after a good run. I want to reach out and say something so bad but that wouldn’t change anything. He’s shown me time and time again that he doesn’t want me in his life despite him saying otherwise. I’m stuck between trying to accommodate to him vs. just saying “fuck this” and letting go. I’m not gonna talk to him but I do miss him at night. I can’t help but wonder if he feels the same. All I wanted was for him to prove that he actively wanted me in his life. I just wanted him to try and I started to lash out from frustration, resentment, and anxiety because he wasn’t meeting promises and doing other things. I understand I can’t around him because he brings up all this unresolved anger while I brng out unresolved guilt in him. My hope is things work out for us and he has mentioned he hopes for the same. I just get so impatient because I feel like nothing is changing so I went off on him and he got upset. We haven’t been together for some time but I felt like a burden to him to I decided to just leave. I just miss him and I’m posting here to avoid talking to him. I’m just really emotional.
Last updated on:2026-03-20T05:50:01+05:30
Comments (6)
It's the same thing I experience but we have to accept with what happened, let's stay strong, God's timing and plans always the best 🙏🙏
yeah stay strong 💪 we can all feel your pain in one way or another. The missing them so much it can be overwhelming is what I deal with to and it does come and go for me too with intensity but it's always there. Do something nice for yourself.. some retail therapy or a nice long bath with salts, a treat you like to eat. Wish you the best
Thank you for sharing. There are some similarities in your situation to mine that make me feel less alone. Keep honouring your feelings, cry it out when you need to, and bring good into the world however you can. I know it hurts so much sometimes, because I'm right here with you. It's been one week since we broke up. I agree that the nights are the hardest for me, too. I either try to distract myself, obsess with thinking, or get waves of emotion, crying and letting a few wails come out. You can do this, you connected with people with this post and you will look back and be so proud of yourself for getting through this phase because I swear that moving through THIS is superhuman and extraordinary.
when he says he wants things to work out, does his actions ever actually match that, or is it mostly words that keep you holding on?
i hear how hard you’re trying not to reach out, that takes a lot.🥺
nights are the worst, i swear. i used to be fine all day and then the second everything got quiet it HIT, like i couldn’t breathe thinking about him. that missing doesn’t come in parts, it just floods you all at once.