The pain of losing my toxic girl love

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I've been separated from my first girl love and i miss her so bad, i heard that lesbian relationship were deep and hard but damn, even if she was such a toxic liar, i've been crying every night.. but keeping no-contact 💪🏻

Last updated on:2026-03-26T04:20:47+05:30

Comments (7)

FrostTap906
FrostTap906 1 wk ago

hmm

brokenbody
brokenbody 2 wks ago

do you miss her as she really was, or the version of her you kept hoping she’d become?

Lumiana111
Lumiana111 2 wks ago

I think both but mostly as she was. I was really aware of the bad but she was so good at making me feel special and safe. This is the hardest part now

starynight
starynight 2 wks ago

i’m glad you’re keeping no contact, i know how tempting it is to go back just to stop the pain for a second

Lumiana111
Lumiana111 2 wks ago

It is but actually i know i will never have the answers at all my questions so, there is no need to coming back. She isn't trying to reach me either so she doesn't care and that's something i needed to see...

ImpresSIVE
ImpresSIVE 2 wks ago

my first girl love wrecked me too, like i knew she was toxic but i still missed her in ways that didn’t even make sense. those nights where you’re crying and still choosing no contact are HARD

Lumiana111
Lumiana111 2 wks ago

Yes it is ! I have been dating guys for years and breakup were never that hard. And actually i am devastated now but actually i have never seen her irl, i never knew her touch, her smell and kisses so i cannot imagine how impossible it could have been. But i never believed i could be in love that deep 😭