this may be long but sorrry
I am 49 in Feb this year when I was 29 I buried my first husband it was very unexpected we was together 8 years he was a great man
Then I finally put myself back out there to meet my second husband we was together 16 years he left one morning for work like always gave me a kiss and he was off to work only to have the cops at my door around 10 that morning saying he unalived himself (sorry not sure what the rules are) so I buried my second husband that hit hard could not get out of bed for a long time
but I finally got back out there and got involved with a avoidant he has broke up with me so many time can’t count
I feel like I just don’t know how to do break ups. every time he does this I feel like I am losing it and get very anxious
I often ask myself is it because I have truly never been through a breakup in my adult life? they were always taken from me and nothing I could do would change that. what do yall think
Last updated on:2026-05-14T16:05:57+05:30
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i keep thinking about the part where you said they were always taken from you. when he pulls away now, does it feel more like heartbreak or does it feel like fear all over again?
definitely a little of both. but I do know I am tired of going through it.
losing two partners that way and then getting thrown into the chaos of an avoidant breakup after all that… yeah, i can understand why your nervous system would panic every time he leaves.