I don’t even know if this ache is about me anymore. the last time we got into a fight was weeks ago. the last time he processed his hurt, his thoughts, I don’t know how long it’s going to take him. I don’t know if this is on my shoulders or if this is a decision I can’t control any more.
sigh. this makes zero sense, it’s a 6:15am post, and i’m yearning for my lover again. tempted to drop a message on him telling him about this account so he can see all 22 posts for himself and see how torn apart I am. But I know he won’t.
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Last updated on:2026-05-15T15:16:39+05:30
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do you think part of you wants him to see the account because you want connection again, or because you want proof that your pain mattered to him
both, haha
i used to make those 5am notes too, hoping if my ex could just SEE how wrecked i was he’d finally understand. but honestly, people already know when they’ve hurt you. the hard part is realizing they still might not come back
and the thing is, for us? he needs to process his own hurt and his own pain first. and then it gets to consider us and if us is even a thing anymore.