I am doing a lot better then i was when we first broke up , he doesn’t consume my mind anymore . I will admit i do still miss him , but not for the person he is now and instead i miss the old him - and how happy we were together . i do mourn our relationship , because i loved him so so deeply and it was the first time id ever felt that sort of way before - but time will heal .
I have spoke to new guy for a few days , but i am not rlly interested in moving on yet - i still need time to myslef first . I do feel sick whenever i see updates of him , and i will say that if im arguing with my parents or having a rlly rubbish day i do wish i could just call him and hear him tell me im gonna be okay . It is hard some days - because everytime i cry i end up crying over him . However , love is a strong emotion - and i can’t expect myself to randomly be okay . it will take time , especially as he was my first relationship and it lasted 18 months .
I miss him , but i am going to be okay.
Last updated on:2026-05-18T08:17:11+05:30
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i actually think you’re handling this in a really healthy way. not forcing yourself to move on fast, letting yourself miss him without running back, understanding healing isn’t linear.
when you think about the old him you miss, do you feel like that version of him slowly changed during the relationship, or did the breakup make him feel like a completely different person?
i’m at this stage too and honestly this felt really comforting to read. missing the old version of him while knowing the relationship is over is such a weird kind of grief. i still catch myself wanting to text my ex whenever life feels heavy
i feel this on such a deep level and it’s only been 21 days of no contact and i always find myself asking “why” he doesn’t care or why it isnt affecting him