Why i didn't read his message after 53 days apart

I made it to 53 days! im very proud of what I've accomplished in that time in terms of self discovery and enriching my life without him.

Today I did a breathwork workshop. At about 730am this morning I saw there was a msg from him. I decided not to read it because I wanted to focus all my energy on the workshop. It was an incredible journey and I was able to feel and let go of some really built up trapped emotions.

I really believed he wouldn't contact me again and we'd live our separate lives. We had a civil breakup and left on good terms. But it still shocked me he reached out since he was the one who ended things. Like they all say, once you've fully healed, thats when they reach out. I kinda feel like I won. I left him on read after our last interaction as a couple, so he technically double texted LOL

I feel like I was almost complete with my healing journey, when a couple of days ago I learnt my dad has months left to live. Then I was like "what breakup?". it no longer mattered.

I still believe i have a little bit left on my healing journey, if I saw him with another girl, I'd be hurt and jealous. But I feel like him reaching out is a good start. My response was pretty dry, didnt really inform him of what I've been doing or how im feeling. I dont feel like he has a right to that yet. I'd like a friendship with him, but I dont see us hanging out for a long time. I just want to see how he respects me now we are no longer in a romantic relationship. I never want him back, but he is a really good person that id like to keep in my life.

Last updated on:2026-05-30T17:41:12+05:30