I thought I was doing really well, and then today, I saw a couple with two boys and it set me off again. I miss the boys more than I miss him, but I do miss him too, even though deep down I know it wasn't real, and if it was, he couldn't or wouldn't sustain it. On days like these, I feel I'm going backwards. I mean, I *know* he never really cared about me, not the way I cared about him, but still, it hurts sometimes. I guess I'm lonely too. Sorry, I'm rambling.
Last updated on:2026-06-01T18:03:26+05:30
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i got attached to my ex's kids too, and losing them felt like a whole separate breakup that nobody really understood. seeing an ordinary family out in public could ruin my entire day
i don't think this sounds like going backwards at all. for me, the grief came in waves, and sometimes the wave was about the future i pictured more than the person themselves.
when you say you miss the boys more than him, do you think you're grieving the connection with them, or the life you imagined having with all of them together?
A little of both,to be honest.
keep your head up, keep moving forward, and know you're not alone friend ❤️
Thank you ❤️