Hey guys! You might remember me a few posts from before, I'm the 22 year old who slept with her married 38 year old boss. Our company doesnt work in the summer so im officially finished with him (I also got a new job for August so I won't have to see him again). Some part of me wishes to talk to him. Idk if it's because I want answers, validation or something else. He made a joke that everyone in the company is dead to him during summer and said he would contact me again in August asking about my new job. That could all have been a lie of course and maybe if it happens by then I'll be stronger to not reply. But today is day 4 since the last time we texted. I've realised that its always after 4 days of no contact he breaks it and reaches out. Always with a work excuse at the start and then the conversations flows. I looked at my messages today secretly hoping to see a message. But work is finished so he no longer has anything to start the conversation with. Maybe there won't be a text at all. And for some reason that hurts. I know it's wrong and selfish to wait for that text but some part of me is craving a last conversation, an apology, an explanation. A moment to say how I felt and hurt because of him. How do I keep myself busy and not craving that message?
Last updated on:2026-06-01T20:20:11+05:30
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that the apology and explanation i wanted might never come. i kept replaying conversations in my head for months, and none of it changed what happened. getting distance from him and that workplace sounds like a really big step.
when you imagine that last conversation, what do you hope you'd walk away with? an answer, an apology, or proof that what happened meant something to him too?
I think it's really selfish of me but I would like to hear that it meant something for him too, even if it can't happen again. To at least know there was that connection instead of just pure physical service. I also hoped for an apology, for him to tell me know sorry he is for making me feel like he really wanted something real with me. Maybe I'm asking for too much and maybe I'm just delusional
first of all..I think he texts if he wants sth fro you...if he wanted to be serious you'd actually know and also ..get a new hobby and go out make friends and have a streak on sth to like distract you..helps a bit...journal your feelings and then journal positive feelings as welll..if you wanna forger write a cons list and read it everytime you want to go back or think about them
Thank you for your advice !