I feel like the longer im in NC, the harder its getting not to reach out. My nervous system has settled, im at peace with the breakup, im filling my time with things I wanted to do with him, but I get to do them by myself. My life is good without him.
However, my heart is taking its time to catch up. I know I still love him. I miss him terribly. I dont want to be with him, but I miss our communication. I just want to check in on him and see how's hes going. When he broke up with me, I told him I only want him to be happy and I wanted him to go live his best life. I guess I just want to make sure hes happy.
Im never going to break NC because its been so important with my healing, plus communication goes both ways, he could have easily reached out but he hasn't. I guess it just feels harder to keep being strong and not to contact him.
Last updated on:2026-05-25T03:06:12+05:30
Comments (6)
honestly the fact you can sit in the missing without breaking no contact says a lot.
you wants to check if he’s happy, or do you think you want reassurance that losing you affected him too?
getting to the point where my life actually felt okay again but my heart still kept reaching for them out of habit. it’s such a weird kind of grief when you DON’T want them back but still miss hispresence every day.
i was in the same situation..Sometimes those feeling still hit me.Its been i guess over 2 years.But these are feelings and i keep them to me and just smile.U must have loved him with all ur heart thats why it still hurts.However there is a light at the end of tunnel and u r halfway through it
I hope that would be the case for me as well, after going back and reaching out and hurting myself I decided to end my contact with him
I think thats what keeps me in no contact, the fact if I were to reach out he may act coldly or not at all. I dont want to reset my healing