The loneliness is burdening me so bad that I can’t sleep. It just pains me to know that she isn’t mine anymore and she’s free to do what she wants but why didn’t she choose me? I stuck by her whenever it got tough or even when she was at her lowest but I guess i’m the fool. I chose to love someone that hard and it ultimately made me look like a fool. What type of man am i supposed to be if my heart can get taken advantage of so easily? I’m so insecure I can’t even look at myself without focusing on my insecurities and I feel worthless as a person. All honesty I want love because I didnt have parents so I search for love and good in people even when they show me why I shouldn’t be around them. I dropped my guard completely for her now look where I am. Typing a vent post at the early hours of the night in my bed sitting alone with a heavy heart. I don’t know what to do anymore
Last updated on:2026-06-29T15:17:11+05:30
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you said you feel worthless and like you got taken advantage of. are you safe right now where you are, or is it getting to a point where you feel like you need someone with you tonight
We all feel you, we all have to go through this pain. questioning everything, feeling insecure, wondering why. somehow we will all grow and find strength from these painful experiences. You will get there. Hang in there. 🫶
A heartbreak can be really hard. Especially in the beginning. You're actually doing good by writing how ur feeling, and the NC. :) That said, please don't be so hard on yourself. You're punishing yourself by only looking at your insecurities. no one would feel better of that, although that's quite obvious. If you want to grow as a person you have to do the things you need to do, try new or old hobbies, go for a walk, volunteer for a good cause, write down good distractions what you would like to do. It gives life purpose and makes it rich. Hopefully it shifts the focus. Because actually the most important relationship is with ourselves. You're worth it !!!
Let me tell you something, you are not a fool , not everyone is like you, you know how to love and you have a good heart, and that makes you special, you just need to learn who deserves your love and who don’t. A good love will come to you one day, the one you deserve and everything will make sense. Sometimes life takes away what is not good for us, and even when we can’t see it now, things happens for a reason, sometimes people doesn’t know how to manage good relationships and that’s a reflex of them, you did your best and that’s what matters.